Don't Be Such A Downer!

I was fired a week and a half ago.

"Man, why would write about something so depressing? Isn't there something happier you could blog about?"

Well, I could extemporize on the three episodes of 30 Rock I watched on demand last week, or what I have been eating for breakfast everyday. But something tells me that wouldn't completely be worth reading. And since I've already adequately ripped The Lightning Thief a new one on various other social media, it's time to move on.

The point is, if you're going to take the time to share your innermost thoughts with the world wide web, it better be about something you are familiar with, and that you care about. Otherwise, what's the point?

So yes, I was fired a week and a half ago.

What's the worst thing about being fired? I have found that it's not the sudden lack of income, or the relative aimlessness that comes with not having a fixed daily schedule, but the feeling you get when someone looks you in the eye, and in essence, tells you "That thing you always felt at least moderately competent doing...we disagree. Sorry, guess you were wrong."

Man, that's the blow. You'd feel a little better if you knew it was for financial reasons. That at least doesn't reflect on you. Hell, the economy sucks...we can't hide from that. But no, "you aren't what we thought you would be." It's hard to not just walk away and think to yourself, "Who did I let down? What's wrong with me?"

But self confidence is a crazy thing, and just when you thought it had taken a vacation, it pops its head back in. Waht's even crazier is that confidence speaks with a voice that sounds a lot like your wife, or your close friends, or your former employers, or your family. And in that voice, it holds you closely and it says, "There's a reason for this, and it's their loss. Not yours." And let me tell you, when self-confidence has so many different voices, and they all seem to be saying the same thing, you can't help but believe those voices. You can't help but think that they are speaking truth, and they obviously know what they're talking about. Those voices have known you a hell of a lot longer than any former employer. What's more, they know you more intimately. They know what you're capable of, and they know what you can be when you are at your best, and if they have anything to say about it, they'll be damned if you don't SHINE!

So yes, for the present time, I am going to blog about what it means to be unemployed, because I firmly believe it's a topic that can be addressed with humor, positivity, and promise. I'm also going to keep track of other goals of my own; weight loss, exercise, and creativity. I will include information regarding all those things with every post, and we'll see where I end up once I'm gainfully employed again.

So for today: As of 03/11/2010
Weight: 240.5 lbs.
Exercise Goal: Do a half hour on the elliptical
Creativity: begin to assemble cover letter that adequately paints a picture of the professional I am, and want to be!

So, what have we learned today. Unemployment sucks. Especially not getting a paycheck. But you can view it as a prison sentence, or a gift. I choose a gift. why?

Because when you are working full time you're decisions have been made. Right now, the possibilities are endless.